stressed out

Hi there S,

Seeing as you seem stressed, I thought I would talk about fun ways I have attempted to resolve my busy mind. Maybe it might give you a few ideas, bring up good memories, or just not for you. Either way, I have enjoyed writing this letter to you.

From the messages that you sent me, your days sound hectic. We may be very different but when I have trouble whatever it may be I go for really long walks, the longer the better and after a few days of this and resting I seem to be able to focus and get what I needed done. Long straight paths work wonders, small streets and dead ends is not good when I am trying to create a thought path.

I am sure there are many ways to “peel and orange” –get things done.

Here my school life starts back gain, but for some reason it does not scare me, I feel in control of myself, and the business could be good for me. I like to learn and think it is beneficial, but my own projects are my main focus, always have been. When things get too in my face I just cast them aside, this is my life, my days and my plans. Being caught up in things I don’t care about is just not worth it.

Lately I have been interested in interior design and style. I write draw and make music, but have never paid attention to the way I set out a room or what I wear. When really I should. Present myself how I want to feel and who I am, and that idea of environment effecting ones perception is so very true. I knew about it but never applied it to anything. Not to impress people or find acceptance, but for mindset, for myself.

Yoga, I never do enough bending streaching breathing into stretched, stretching out my toes. I feel so grounded after a good few repeated stretches. And it really helps with my thighs and lower back that get tense because I move around a lot.

 

Always smiling,

Lily Plum

letters unsent

I find good therapy for me and the best way to deal with a difficult time is to write a letter that I will not send. No one is hurt, and gives me time to reflect and heal.Is there answers from someone that you never got? Or is there something you wanted to get of your chest to someone but never did?

Dear T,

 

I am upset, I really liked you and felt you felt the same way.

that day and night we spent together. I could say I was not myself, and did not express the way I wanted to. Maybe I was as nervous as you were, but you just didn’t see it. I had a lot to say to you and ask you. but said the wrong things, wore clothing that I don’t normally wear. and was really timid.

I think the drive down and a few busy days before hand turned me into a passive zombie. Not really myself, something I would normally stay at home and hid way for a day to recover.

I would like to know,

did meeting me unvail the illusion?

I said to myself I would take sometime assess how I feel and write back to you in a few weeks with a clear head.

I thought you might write back, but you have not. So I thought I would send this email to clear things up for me. In that time I was able to reflect on myself. and no I cannot say after that first meeting I was happy where it was headed. Only because I had things I had not dealt with yet and needed time by myself to do so.

To say that you have made up your mind, had a good time but. I think the thing that bugged me was your email it was not a proper answer.

one of the sacriest things with getting to know someone knew is thinking can I be myself around them. If the answer is no, then why? and if the answer is still no. then they are not for you.

 

Your friend and always smiling,

 

Lily

 

Trying to write an email to a friend

Dear S,

A holiday sounds exciting! from our recent chats it seems like you need and crave getting out of that city.

Study to be done, and holiday to plan, It sounds stressful and exciting at the same time.

P is a good spot to see the urban sprawl. P has many calafornia bungalow houses that look amazing when to walk down streets lined with them. And a short tram ride towards the city will take you to what I think is the best of Melbourne’s urban culture. It all awaits to open up before you.

Or staying it the city opens up other options. I’ll let you find them yourself. hehe 🙂 whatever you choose I am sure it will be great!

Looking forward to hearing about your thoughts, plans and adventures.

 

Your friend and always smiling,

 

Lily

Thoughts not said.

Dear K,

You intimidate me. It is okay that you are a strong independent woman, I need more heroine like you in my life. But it’s a strong feeling I get when I read your profile, that says “no”. no explanation why you’d reject me, just a “no”.

I did not messaged you straight away,  I thought I would take some time to think about the things you wrote, pictures you posted and just think about you for a moment, and assess how you make me feel.

You are sexy, and when I look at you I only want to have my way with you. But intellectually we may not be compatible, you are smart, but comes across as cold. It may not be that you are cold, maybe you are just content with yourself and your life.

I would like to here more about your learning experiences, and what things in science take hold of your interest? I have a love for weird, resourceful and sustainable.

chat soon,

R