Stuck with my dark thoughts

Fuck this life, life is shit, I just want it to end. Why am I even here? Is this some big joke? I hate how stupid I am, and all the dumb things that I do, everyone else has sorted things out, but I am here just doing  and achieving nothing, working towards another broken dream.

I don’t want to leave this room there is nothing out there for me, everything I had is not broken, and it is all my fault. I am just a worm, and needy ever so needy, why cant I be the person everyone things I should be. You get close and I just cant take it any more I just want it all to end.

Crush/Crushed – Lyrics

(Chorus)

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

fine then, break my heart again

I didn’t match up to your ideals?  Unfortunately I am real

Whatever you choose I understand

Loved, Crush, crushed

 

(VERSE)

Lover I lover you like no other and I just want to say hey, you know how I feel

Well I hope you do, I share a piece of me with you, and

Each day I would like to say, love,

Love you are something I wanted to be, someone I wanted to know,

And again,again, lets go for a walk between the tall trees, and feel small,

Nature call, rant rant, say all I can, I want it all out, no stopping me now

 

(Chorus)

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

fine then, break my heart again

I didn’t match up to your ideals?  Unfortunately I am real

Whatever you choose I understand

Loved, Crush, crushed

 

(VERSE)

And now I am here again, I didn’t think it would hurt this hard,

but hey that’s what happens when you open your heart,

I need some time alone, without my cell phone, house days weeks,

With just me to think, And I tell you now,

I would like to think I learnt a think or two from you, and about me

(Chorus)

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

fine then, break my heart again

I didn’t match up to your ideals?  Unfortunately I am real

Whatever you choose I understand

Loved, Crush, crushed

 

(VERSE)

Its just nice to feel loved, I am sure I can manage without,

But where is the fun in that, I like to be caught up and crush hard,

Harder than I have ever felt before, build that feeling,

To fall I am willing, is love just a feeling?

 

(Chorus)

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

fine then, break my heart again

I didn’t match up to your ideals?  Unfortunately I am real

Whatever you choose I understand

Loved, Crush, crushed

Crush, crushed

Never ever enough

 

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

Love, I don ‘t want you to go,

stay, stay I wish it wasn’t so

 

fine then, break my heart again

 

 

 

I am gone

Hide away, I don’t want to be seen, look away take a turn that will take me further from interaction, I don’t want to think I don’t want to make myself know I want to hide away on a day like today. there are so many things that I can see that i want but I will walk around them and walk away as I don’t know what to do or how to maintain it, I am ever so alone and empty inside, I feel the cold sweat of loneliness crowding in on me and I think this may be the end there is no way up and I keep sinking, I want to sink I want to feel pain and I want to be alone. I want to be left alone never to be thought of again, for the earth to swallow me up and to not let me back out, I reach out a beg for nothing to come of me. for me to become the emptiness inyour heart and the feeling that you made me feel. I am gone, and I am blaming you.