Sometimes I think about being serious, and what that means for my online presents. But where is the fun in that?
thinking about sex can be such a strong feeling,
immobilizing me, sitting there with warm shivers running down my spine,
why are these thoughts so strong, so overwhelming?
There comes a point where I have too much stuff and no room to start a new project. Here I am taking the morning to downsize my project space clutter so that I have more space to create new projects, organize old projects.
As I sketch,document and note take heaps I have decided to standardize my sketches and cheaply. The best solution is a4 copy paper, I can grab what I need for the day, easily scan and then throw away/keep what is needed and what is not.
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when I have no place I need to be I fall into a heap,
I feel gross, and unhappy,
I can’t decide what to do with myself
And just dwell.
EXHIBITION FURNITURE ART: Over the past month I had been really stressed, I had a big exhibition that I entered in very late, and the project seemed a bit more skilled than I had experience with. But that was delivered on the date and tonight is opening night, where I get to relax with friends maybe a little bit of wine and look at the other artworks.
RELATIONSHIP AND ALONE TIME: Another thing that was adding stress, is I am not single any more and dating has been a little tricky as before that I had plenty of time to distance myself and think deeply over long periods of time on topics. But dating and a relationship had cramped that alone time and thought space that I felt so comfortable in. I think it is just one of those kinks that me and my partner have to work out, how to not neglect alonetime.
UNIVERSITY: Handed in a few of my last assignments so in a way I am suddlenly surrounded by lots of time to not be places and do things which is a nice releaf to sleep in a little. I was so stressed about a presentation but, instead of keep pushing into a roadblock that I had hit, I took the project from a different angle and suddenly it is not the stress that it was but rather very playful and interesting and I will probably work on it during my spare time.
I received a notification that I have been using wordpress to blog for three years now,
I did sign up three years ago but it after my first few post I had a big break before getting into it a year later.
I come here as a safe space to release my emotions onto a page, to deal with a difficult day.
Maybe think a plan over, or excitedly tell what I have no one else to tell.
What makes a consistant blog? habit, ritual, comfortable, easy of use, solitude
I write when I am alone at home when I want to be social online but I don’t really want to message anyone directly.
I feel comfortable here as it is fairly straight forward, I open up a page and start typing.
Familiar should go with comfortable, I have done it so often that it has become a familiar and comfortable space that I know.
What keeps you blogging? how long have you been blogging?
Uni, work and social life are piling up on me
my clothes are to tight, feeling the restricted movement
I can’t think, I don’t have head space to breath
I just want to take things slow
All three of us sat around the fireplace,
outside on the pavement, in comfy chairs,
blankets cover us and cushion our seating,
The fire crackles making the trees glow
appear in three colours yellow, red and brown
I am warm happy drinking wine
it is so nice here, so warm,
too warm to go to my cold bed to sleep
too warm to sleep
I find it hard to write when things are going well,
I find it hard to write when I am surrounded by loving people.
writing for me can be a way to deal with stress, a quiet house or just a verbal release,
though when things are going well, and surrounded by loving people
I find it hard to write,
I guess that is a good thing?