I feel cold and shiver with the urge to touch myself, I want to take days of work and to enjoy the body I have.
I want love, I want to be touched
I have been dating for six months now and feel like all this love coming and going from the one direction is a little difficult for me to deal with.
I enjoy my alone time, I think I think differently, I want to feel comfortable and silly in my own skin around my partner so that being with them is as comfortable as being apart.
This is a difficult one as I have not found a way to do that yet
Sometimes I think about being serious, and what that means for my online presents. But where is the fun in that?
thinking about sex can be such a strong feeling,
immobilizing me, sitting there with warm shivers running down my spine,
why are these thoughts so strong, so overwhelming?
There comes a point where I have too much stuff and no room to start a new project. Here I am taking the morning to downsize my project space clutter so that I have more space to create new projects, organize old projects.
As I sketch,document and note take heaps I have decided to standardize my sketches and cheaply. The best solution is a4 copy paper, I can grab what I need for the day, easily scan and then throw away/keep what is needed and what is not.
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when I have no place I need to be I fall into a heap,
I feel gross, and unhappy,
I can’t decide what to do with myself
And just dwell.
EXHIBITION FURNITURE ART: Over the past month I had been really stressed, I had a big exhibition that I entered in very late, and the project seemed a bit more skilled than I had experience with. But that was delivered on the date and tonight is opening night, where I get to relax with friends maybe a little bit of wine and look at the other artworks.
RELATIONSHIP AND ALONE TIME: Another thing that was adding stress, is I am not single any more and dating has been a little tricky as before that I had plenty of time to distance myself and think deeply over long periods of time on topics. But dating and a relationship had cramped that alone time and thought space that I felt so comfortable in. I think it is just one of those kinks that me and my partner have to work out, how to not neglect alonetime.
UNIVERSITY: Handed in a few of my last assignments so in a way I am suddlenly surrounded by lots of time to not be places and do things which is a nice releaf to sleep in a little. I was so stressed about a presentation but, instead of keep pushing into a roadblock that I had hit, I took the project from a different angle and suddenly it is not the stress that it was but rather very playful and interesting and I will probably work on it during my spare time.
I received a notification that I have been using wordpress to blog for three years now,
I did sign up three years ago but it after my first few post I had a big break before getting into it a year later.
I come here as a safe space to release my emotions onto a page, to deal with a difficult day.
Maybe think a plan over, or excitedly tell what I have no one else to tell.
What makes a consistant blog? habit, ritual, comfortable, easy of use, solitude
I write when I am alone at home when I want to be social online but I don’t really want to message anyone directly.
I feel comfortable here as it is fairly straight forward, I open up a page and start typing.
Familiar should go with comfortable, I have done it so often that it has become a familiar and comfortable space that I know.
What keeps you blogging? how long have you been blogging?